What 's Wrong With Me?

A simple touch. A brush of hand on cheek.
Such a tiny gesture. Almost meaningless.

So why does it hurt?


Why does my throat tighten
when you pull me in close for a hug?
as if you've wrapped your hands
around my neck and squeezed?

Why do I cringe inside
when you reach for my hand?
As if a thousand tiny thorns
are being pushed into my palms?

Why does my skin crawl
when your fingers caress?
As if your hands will
bring the curse of death?

Why do my lips sting
when yours brush mine lightly?
As if they are covered in acid
and it's eating my flesh?

Why does my heart die
when you say "I love you"?
As if you've taken a spoon
and ripped it out?


What's wrong with me?